anticipation

 there’s just something so beautifully sweet about allowing yourself a moment of joy. as you may know, i am a full time caretaker for an elderly family member. there are people who live on the property that… do not treat me with respect or kindness. thus, my living situation is not ideal at times and as a mentally ill individual brings me a great deal of stress. despite it all, however, i persevere. 

when i was fourteen my favourite bands were One Direction and 5 Seconds of Summer, i was a young teenage girl fascinated by the bright sounds of intriguing pop and an internet hive mind of hype and appreciation and wonder. recently, i was able to bring myself to listen to One Direction again despite the painful twinge of nostalgia that sometimes arises. that teenage girl, well, she went through a lot of shit. now, she’s me. a trans man, still going through his own brand of shit. i’ve been listening to 5SOS again. i don’t follow them on socials or keep up with them much, but i’ve been listening to them a lot again and really enjoying listening to music i like. 

i dog sat for some family members recently and just got paid today for doing that, and so. i just bought a concert ticket! i’ll be seeing 5SOS this month [august, 2026] and i am so excited! the seat is in the back section, a seat just in front of the lawn with no cover. i talked myself into a less expensive seat so i can have funds for gas, food, and perhaps even merch if i find myself so inclined.

blogging is fun. i’m sitting here on the couch saying so many words about the act of buying a concert ticket. i am oh so very thrilled!